Thursday, July 10, 2008

Moments of Vulnerability

Ever been in this situation?

Your life slows down to a gradual pace, breathing heavily, flashbacks of clustered memories fills the air, you try to reach for them but it passes by so quickly you cannot grasp what is going on, you begin to feel that you are losing control of everything, you are completely drenched in sweat, its like a dream and you are unable to wake up to reality, its almost surreal, you begin to float in and out of dreams and reality, then, you try to comprehend what is going on, it scares the shit out of you, you scramble your way out of the seemingly endless thick clouds filled with vacuums of unsustainable 3 second clips of your lifetime’s past.

You feel dizzy like, with a million needles piercing through your thick membrane, and suddenly you are beamed into another perspective, you hear endless laughter all around you. Moments later, you subconsciously wake up to a sledgehammer hitting your brains out. Still in a daze, trying to figure out what the hell just happened. You look at the clock, 1 hour had only just passed and it’s not even midnight yet.

You drink a glass of water, trying to calm yourself down and you hit the sack again with a million questions still playing in your mind. You cannot stay awake because you are still floating in and out and your head is killing you. You change into a new pair of PJs and lay yourself down again on the bed, trying to keep your eyelids as tight as possible, and tell yourself its all just a dream, reassuring yourself that it is ok. Moments later, the whole thing repeats itself…

Have you ever been in this situation.....?

3 comments:

jnj said...

The drugs don't work,
they just make you worse,
but i know i will see your face again...

RayC said...

oh... the verve vibe...

jnj said...

Be frank, i had the same case here last night..

Scary then..