Sanity in Life

My migraine is certainly getting the better of me these days... maybe due to too much contemplation on certain issues. Problems just wont stop... it'll keep on coming and that's the whole freaking problem... that's life I guess but to say nothing's going right is not right as well because I am keeping up with what I should be doing and that is a good sign of progress... I hope so.

Chameleons, chameleons, chameleons everywhere... is that the way and how life goes these days? Embracing these people is actually quite easy IF we know how to deal with them but they can be a real pain in the ass! To those I feel sick of... I've only got 5 words for you... shove it up your ass! But really... dunno why I suddenly felt this way... a sudden revolt in my brain circuits but I still meant it for those of you who know yourselves. Anyway... bollocks... total shite I am talking now... Anyway, there's this issue which is always creeping up whenever big news comes along in Malaysia or SEA countries... like the recent resignation of Dr. Mahathir and the transition of power to Ahmad Badawi or better know as Pak Lah. Western reports are always biased... I wonder why? Are these people call racist to the extend that no super powers can exist in Asia? Why do they need to bring the system down or rather offer critism to whatever these countries do? Don't they have any other better reports to write on? And I am talking about big time media corporates... Total shite! These people can really brag about their own country's good welfare while condemning others but have no freaking idea that their country is much worse than what is being potrayed across the sea! So much for that... If I can tell the world what is going on... it's just gonna be in 2 words... Western Hypocrisy! Bollocks!

Anyway... think I am more than outspoken today...that should make me retire for the day. By the way... I am my usual self so far... no updates as yet... will do so when there's any. Oh... and yeah... I am not counting on Henman to make it to the finals at Wimbledon... don't think his arrogance will do good for the English but good luck to him anyway. Alrite mates... sound that... gotta hop on now. Ta'...

Bittersweet Symphony

These days have been packed... too packed that I am not sure my time has been fairly justified... no matter how I try to make more time for myself, it is getting all jammed up. I am having a backlog of things to do and I know I need to resolve matters soon. Therefore, I am truly sorry for not being able to update my journal as often as I want here as promised. Bear with me for some time until I have really sorted most things out. It's gonna be really hectic this summer as I look forward to a rewarding result later. I hope everyone understands especially me Family and Stph.

Looking on to another thing, what did I tell you folks... England brought it on to themselves as they bowed out to Brazil in a lacklustre match of over confidence. Tabloids to be blamed? Really, the whole of England and the team thought they were at their best and had the whole world in their hands. How wrong can they be but what has took place is history. England can only look forward to the Euro in 2 years and the World Cup in Germany in 4 years time. Maybe... just maybe that will be their year. On the other hand, I am sad that Spain has been forced to retire from the tournament due to poor refereeing and linesmen. It was totally unacceptable that they went out without given a fair play. Football politics is full of shite! But I am not totally devastated as I look forward to my favourite team, Brazil to lift the cup next Sunday. Good Luck!

For the past few days, I have been sleeping little due to the many things I needed to attend to plus not forgetting the World Cup matches very early in the morning televised live here in the morning. My eyes bags are getting heavier and I seriously look like a giant panda. I had quite a migraine the other day which felt terrible. It was like having a 5 tonne crane crashing down on my head and my it was constantly in pain. It could have been due to stress and the lack of sleep but it isn't insomnia like what I experienced in the past. Anyway, the pain still comes now and then but I am trying my very best to organize things better. Today, I saw over the online news a shocking story which really swept me off my feet... Dr. M resigning! It can't be... I mean... I'm not saying that I am a staunch supporter of Dr. M or any opposition leaders but hey... look at it this way... he has kept us Malaysians and our country from harm no matter what the rumours were... and honestly speaking... amongst the other politicians... I look up to no one other than Dr. M himself, reliable, discipline and safe. I am glad he is considering his decision and will stay on as our leader. That some time will come but let it be later. I don't know how many will agree with me but I think what he has done is phenomenal... to be emerging as a reckoning force in South East Asia and I hope he stays.

Well... that pretty much sums up today... another boring Sunday for me later... but God willing, I hope I can achieve me aims and dreams in time to come with all my effort. Ta'...

Only In Dreams

My my... its been long since I last updated my journal as promised... but I am truly sorry to say... too bad folks... I was really pre-occupied with a hell lotsaf things... I wonder what as well... so, don't ask! But having something to do is definitely much better than nothing to do right? In view of my current well being... it's nice to say that I am coping well and many things are going smoothly which pleases me... but we'll never know ain' it? Let's keep our fingers crossed.

Let's talk about the World Cup for a change... not sure if everyone is following it but I presume everyone is. Thing is... I live in the UK right now to only know that things are so bad. Patriotic in one way but I would rather call it arrogant bas3rds. No offence though and I'm sure I earn the right to speak as I live... what I am trying to say ere' is that I would rather support the Irish than the English because they are full of shite. Look... they call it the ultimate finale to the World Cup... Brazil vs England... I fully agree... but having predictions on how the English would beat the hell outtaf Brazil on live national television shows no respect over Brazil. Yeah... the English won 3-0 against the Danes but that does not necessary means that they have conquered the whole blardy world. Take a hike mate... I mean... its good to sound optimistic but hey... it was ONLY a 3-0 win over the Danes... and the whole nation was euphoric as if they have won the World Cup... show some blardy respect! Tabloids went berserk over the reports on how the England camp were jubilant and are already thinking about the finals. What a whole load of shite! Front pages of every daily here reads... "Bring on Brazil"... "We're Not Afraid"... etc... I mean... check this out... Owen's penalty claim over Argentina wasn't actually a penalty but just a self inflicted trip when he tried to avoid a tackle! Yeah...call me a hypocrit... I am a die hard fan of Liverpool with Owen in it but dont' you think the euphoria surrounding the whole nation is too much to bear? and too ARROGANT I would say... be optimistic, YES, but how the whole football crazy nation addressed it was as though they were the only class team around! And to add insult to injury... they even criticized Brazil over the lack of skill and depth after only managing to beat Belgium 2-0... I am utterly dumbfounded! How else can the English go wrong... we'll see this Friday! I would love to see the subdued faces out on streets this Friday after some really crazy scenes over the past few days... football hooligans who were unable to watch it there partied 24/7 on the streets like they were above the law...

Anyway, I'm sure most people who are supporting England but not living here would think I am a bit of an arrogant bas3rd as well after saying all this but trust me... I have no reason in not supporting them... the English brought it to themselves. I am a Liverpudlian by heart... be patriotic YES... but coming to terms with arrogance, criticism of other teams, being far too right wing-ed... I don't think highly of them as gentlemen. I am hoping for a good match this Friday... Brazil is my definite choice... and I cant' wait to see the red faces of the English and the ONE PAGE coverage of the Brazil vs England match on every newspaper in Britain when they lose. Anyway, it's not something new... they only have good reports when England is the forerunner on something and totally bin it when things go wrong... or better still... Adam Crozier or Sven being scapegoats... I would love to hear how they shift the story around... that's why there are so many spin doctors around in the UK.

Well, so much for today... we'll hafta wait and see, shall we. My team to win the World Cup would be the Spaniards... totally not arrogant, they just play their game and that's it. Second to it will be Brazil... and thirdly, the IRISH but they have already crashed out from the party after a really good fight to the Spaniards... 3 Cheers to Ireland! You'll Never Walk Alone...

Till then... ta' but before I forget... Happy Birthday Desmond! Good Luck in your future undertakings and we'll go through all this together mate... YNMA...

Eternal Flame

I have finally settled down at my new place although it was kinda fast as I really love this new place. Its just much better than my previous home. Anyway... many things have happened recently and I just need to update you guys on a few here. My gf and I are back together again after a torrid and horrendous few months back... we had the most toughest and testing period of all time and I am just glad that love has seen us through all this. She was here last week and we managed to catch up on a whole lot of things. I am relieved and glad that we can now look forward to our days again. And Stph... it was a really nice weekend and I am glad you came.

My recent interview at Wolverhampton... well well, sorry to disappoint but I failed to clear another hurdle. I really question my luck... and hopefully, it has everything gotta do with my old place. I don't know... I feel that I've been luckless at my old place and now that I'm in my new home, I feel much clearer and more fresher although I have not tried applying to any new companies yet. Will do so and we shall see if it has anything to do with my old place... talk about a whole load of bullshit in this modern world but hey... everyone has his or her own point of view in all these things rite? I might be kidding myself with this 'haunted' or 'luckless' shit but one thing for sure... I feel happier here and that sums it all. I mean really... there were 'things' back there but I ain't gonna spill my guts out revealing it all to the freaking world. That was that and its all over. End of questions. But tell me guys... anyone here been 'disturbed' before?

Considering my luckless path in getting a job... I still have 2 options... try my luck in this new place by applying for jobs again or pursue my masters degree. Lately, I've been contemplating on which to go on... MSc. or MBA. Both are equally good but I will need to go in more detail about it and will update more when I get new feedbacks.

I feel more and more accustomed to the Scouse way here now in Liverpool... beginning to love the city so much. Developed a certain sense of pride being a Chinese Scouser in a foreign land. Maybe I'll still be one wherever I go now because Liverpool has always been in my blood and to be ere' makes it even more memorable. I love my country, MAS, but Liverpool is extraordinary. It's a pride and passion thing... or maybe it's just the sense of not walking alone... and Liverpool, You'll Never Walk Alone either. Till then, Ta' mate.

This blog will be temporarily offline due to inevitable circumstances. I will be shifting today and so, there will not be any updates till I have settled down in my new place. Will be back soon...