Monday, March 11, 2002

Server was down yesterday and I was dead tired as well. I worked my socks off but it was nonetheless another week of experience and exposure to my guts, instinct, intuition and determination. Far beyond the lavish dreams of ordinary people, I live to look for another day of calmness, solitudeness and mediocrity. Today, I had a repetition of the most impartial and undivulged experience of being to see our soul from our inner peace... I wouldnt call it a form of natural meditation nor would I call it 'soul-separation', the only perception from this experience is to know thyself. I've gone through it many times in the past and although I must say its a bit uncanny in contrast to a normality, I quite enjoy it as a form of relaxation. I can actually stop thinking for a moment and wonder to myself, 'What brings me here?' ...'Why am I here?' ... 'How am I able to control myself?'... and it is within this deep thoughts that I manage to know deeper about myself and venture into something more superficial and peaceful. Anyway, I am still sane... but that was just a quick recap of how enormous and fulfilling it all goes whenever this spectre occurs. Even the worst of gales and weather today didn't stop me from feeling good.

Too tired to comment further now coz I can go on and on forever... Tomorrow will be an extraordinary day I reckon... let's hope so.

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