Numbness
Have been contemplating to write these days... but tiredness has really got the better of me. I still have a dissertation to hand up by end of this month and I am really struggling.... rushing against time and I am now left with only 3 more weeks. So... most likely the blog will be up and fully running by mid of February... *fingers crossed* and I cant wait. Just cant wait to lift this heavy burden off my shoulder! To say the least... I am buggered at the moment... wish me luck guys. Will be back soon...
Friday, January 09, 2004
Thursday, January 01, 2004
The Beginning is the End is the Beginning
Norah Jones fills the air... its raining out there on New Years Day... miserable? Perhaps.... but its really funny how we revel on and on even though its just the passing of a new dawn... and more so... with a sense of renewed hope that things might just get better this year in 2004. The word 'might' sits on the fence between the uncertainties and would be's. Why do we hope for hope when hoping is a nomenclature for reverie. We ask ourselves questions every single day hoping to find an answer to the unknowns and uncertainties. Have we? We watch the news every single day to find lives lost, conflicts, catastrophes... has the world found a solution to it? Then how are we suppose to contain our hope when there is actually no hope beyond the subset?
How do some people actually take it so easy in their lives? Have they found an answer to their 'hopes'? But in actual fact, there is still no answer to 'hope' as this term is too generic. We wake up everyday hoping to find an answer to our questions no matter how we deny it. Probably being ignorant towards it will help in some ways... but we'll keep hoping for that dream hope. So far, I am still hoping, I am still part of the subset like everyone else... wondering to ourselves each and every single day... and today, the break of a new dawn brings a new beginning. My hope...
How do some people actually take it so easy in their lives? Have they found an answer to their 'hopes'? But in actual fact, there is still no answer to 'hope' as this term is too generic. We wake up everyday hoping to find an answer to our questions no matter how we deny it. Probably being ignorant towards it will help in some ways... but we'll keep hoping for that dream hope. So far, I am still hoping, I am still part of the subset like everyone else... wondering to ourselves each and every single day... and today, the break of a new dawn brings a new beginning. My hope...
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
Protracted Revival
....... Houston... we are getting a weak signal..... 'lemme check.... gosh...!! It has been 1 year, 2 months, 4 days and 21 minutes since we last heard from anything... thought it vanished into thin air.... ' 'this cant be true...check command centre... recall all operating satellites for more signals.... we need this!' ......'ayay... copy that'......
[...to be continued...]
....... Houston... we are getting a weak signal..... 'lemme check.... gosh...!! It has been 1 year, 2 months, 4 days and 21 minutes since we last heard from anything... thought it vanished into thin air.... ' 'this cant be true...check command centre... recall all operating satellites for more signals.... we need this!' ......'ayay... copy that'......
[...to be continued...]
Saturday, October 26, 2002
Fields Of Gold
Howling winds of up to 15mps are driving me crazy!! In Liverpool, there's this something called the North Westerly Winds directly facing the Irish Sea and it is also the second running to the most disastrous winds in the UK! Wished the weather was more like Malaysia in these times... warm, sunny, and pleasant. Funny as it seems, the weather might be the shittest I've ever had... but I'm beginning to see the light to certain things. Don't ask me what... it's just a feeling... but it's getting better. Anyway, better get back to my journals... just a tick for people out there that I know, that I'm still alive, well and kicking... since many mates these days have been completely frustrated with my lack of communication... I'm well.
Howling winds of up to 15mps are driving me crazy!! In Liverpool, there's this something called the North Westerly Winds directly facing the Irish Sea and it is also the second running to the most disastrous winds in the UK! Wished the weather was more like Malaysia in these times... warm, sunny, and pleasant. Funny as it seems, the weather might be the shittest I've ever had... but I'm beginning to see the light to certain things. Don't ask me what... it's just a feeling... but it's getting better. Anyway, better get back to my journals... just a tick for people out there that I know, that I'm still alive, well and kicking... since many mates these days have been completely frustrated with my lack of communication... I'm well.
Monday, October 21, 2002
Weird Science
Things have gone absolutely strange and hectic lately... or to be exact... over the past few weeks. I've succumbed to stress in a way I started to drift away from the social aspects of life. It's a rare sight for students but as I have amazingly found out through a number of different channels, all Masters students are experiencing the same thing as me which means it is not just me... I'm not alone! To say the course is good... I have absolutely no doubt or qualms about it but its definitely tearing me up piece by piece... at least for the past few weeks. Thought I had a firm grip on it about last week but I was wrong. I'll never be relaxed as long as I know I've got so much to do. I had a few counselling sessions with different people over the week and it helped me a lot. People say I think alot... too much in fact that I am constantly under severe pressure which leads to a significant change in stress. I have got feedbacks from all my mates and my score was dealt with the most shocking aspect of all... I've completely change.
Therefore, I'll hafta find myself back and FAST, and I'm sure I'll be able to do it. I've more or less swayed sideways and almost ended up in a ditch but there you go... a Scouser's luck is a Scouser's luck. Thanks to me mates and family who have kept me sane throughout speaking to you guys through the phone, ICQ and not forgetting a soul mate who has always been there... and yeah, thanks SP for wearing the red shirt the other day when Liverpool played against Leeds Utd... I noticed. And I would deem it as the lucky Liverpool jersey now even though it's not. Two consecutive victories, Chelsea and Leeds, what about wearing it again on Tuesday nite when Liverpool play Spartak Moscow away? Please....
Anyway, its study week for the next 7 days which means no classes but its' a renewed energy on my part. I am at the library now... been here since morning and will be till nite. Strive as I may but to all those folks whom I have been a 'stranger' over the past few weeks which affected you guys in a way and made you all question yourselves, I am sorry. Will make amends... work with me. Else than that, I am fired on all cylinders, and possess a perfectly normal aesthetic appearance which is top notch. My last say... pls work with me everyone... I've seen postgraduate students crumbling in all possible ways... I am not about to see myself be in that situation. Time and chance. Ta' guys....
::Coldplay - In My Place ::
In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah
I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed
I was lost, oh yeah
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Yeah, how long must you pay for him?
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
I was scared, I was scared
Tired and underprepared
But I wait for you
If you go, if you go
Leaving me here on my own
Well I wait for you
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Yeah, how long must you pay for him?
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Please, please, please
Come on and sing to me
To me, me
Come on and sing it out, out, out
Come on and sing it now, now, now
Come on and sing it
In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah
Oh yeah
Thursday, October 17, 2002
Apocalypta
My week felt like it has never ended since I took up the gauntlet... feeding in ammo from day to day. It's on a Thursday morning... many things in my mind... research offer accross the Mersey, oooooo... IT Analyst.... sounds good but feasible at this time of the year? Anyway, life hasn't been all hell for me. Good times, bad times... and just another ordinary day. I just love these night moments... tranquil yet charming. Jazz and Soul fills this freaked out world of mine... 'right right... let's not get too engrossed with poetic shit here. To all my mates whom I have not contacted for a long time... sorry guys... been all packed up. Will do so in due time... to my dear family and especially my parents... hope you guys understand but feel free to drop me a line whenever possible. Just lemme brief you guys on my day activities... how about having 10 Construction and IT journals each day, 5 Law books, 2 Economics paper, and just about everything else you can think about right at the stroke of 12midnight each and every day? As I've said earlier... it scared the shit outtaf me for the first few weeks but now beginning to get the hang outtaf it... but still... freaking stressed! I would certainly advise anyone against doing a Masters unless you have proper experience from the working world. Just gimme a buzz if you guys have any advise!
It's like all of a sudden my life is surrounded with academicians, philosophies, epitomologies etc!!!! Freak me side ways!! Anyway, gotta get back to my books... but all is cool here... Autumn is ere'... and melancholiness of it all starts to creep in. Wish me luck! Ta' ...
My week felt like it has never ended since I took up the gauntlet... feeding in ammo from day to day. It's on a Thursday morning... many things in my mind... research offer accross the Mersey, oooooo... IT Analyst.... sounds good but feasible at this time of the year? Anyway, life hasn't been all hell for me. Good times, bad times... and just another ordinary day. I just love these night moments... tranquil yet charming. Jazz and Soul fills this freaked out world of mine... 'right right... let's not get too engrossed with poetic shit here. To all my mates whom I have not contacted for a long time... sorry guys... been all packed up. Will do so in due time... to my dear family and especially my parents... hope you guys understand but feel free to drop me a line whenever possible. Just lemme brief you guys on my day activities... how about having 10 Construction and IT journals each day, 5 Law books, 2 Economics paper, and just about everything else you can think about right at the stroke of 12midnight each and every day? As I've said earlier... it scared the shit outtaf me for the first few weeks but now beginning to get the hang outtaf it... but still... freaking stressed! I would certainly advise anyone against doing a Masters unless you have proper experience from the working world. Just gimme a buzz if you guys have any advise!
It's like all of a sudden my life is surrounded with academicians, philosophies, epitomologies etc!!!! Freak me side ways!! Anyway, gotta get back to my books... but all is cool here... Autumn is ere'... and melancholiness of it all starts to creep in. Wish me luck! Ta' ...
Monday, October 07, 2002
Gentle Breeze
Indescribable as it seems, tough yet challenging. My course starts off like an actual Outward Bound course for a 1 year old kid. Here I am from a Mechanical background going into a Construction scene... so, civil guys... watch your back. Anyway... the MSc. has outstretched me to my limits and as each day goes by, I am increasing my limitations, venturing into a 'once-thought-far-from-reach' datum. Somehow or rather... I will pull it through. Let's keep our finger's crossed. But it's funny how it all ends up so philosophically and mentally arousing that we have to have answers for our very own answers. And we have to keep questioning what other people are questioning or researching. Finding answers to answers that has never been answered before. I mean think about it... there's so many things in this whole wide world to research about and in reality... when are we gonna find all these answers to our questions? Never! It's all about thinking really, in a Masters course.
Anyway, went about my b'day the other day and it was so unexpected! And to be very honest, I haven't had a bunch of friends to celebrate it with me before... but of course... I reserved the day before for my other half and it was quite an evening spent dining and basking in the moonlight. The very next day, lecures as usual but as night fell, what was thought to be only 3 friends celebrating it for me swelled right up to 17ppl and that was cool fun. Nonetheless... it was another ordinary day and I am just glad each day passes by peacefully. It has been stressful over the last few weeks... I have been having migraine from my sinus and it was killing me. Really, the stress got the better outtaf me over the last few weeks but I am glad I am finally coming to terms with it. Not to mention the nose bleed for 3 consecutive days!! But all is well now... no more of that sort... just the occasional migraine. Not to mention the A & E of the Royal Liverpool Hospital which almost led me to insanity on Thursday night. Went there at 11pm and only got off at about 6am!! Went there for a check up on my constant nose bleed and you know something… when I queried the doctor regarding my abnormal bleeding… he queried me back…”Is your nose bleeding now?”.. and I gladly told him no and he replied me… “Then I can’t do anything about it coz it’s not bleeding now.”…. I mean… common sense would have told him that if I was still bleeding now and for 3 consecutive days… I would have been dead!! What I wanted literally from the doctors was that they might have been able to run up a brain scan on me to see if there were any internal injuries or something like that… but no! They stuck to the question of “Was I still bleeding from my nose at that very moment?”… Pretty dumb I would say huh?? So, I finally came to the utter conclusion that it was my sinus which was causing all the headache and the bleeding caused by the lamb chops and steaks over the past few days! Damn… my favourites which I have to omit from my menu for the next week or so till I recover!
Liverpool played today... coming to think of it, today was the only day ever since I started my course that I felt really relaxed and composed. It all started in the evening when after 89 minutes of open play, Michael Owen scored for Liverpool's 1-0 win over Chelsea at Anfield!! It really brightened up my day instantly and immediately after that, I was thinking... what the hell... and I went to the cinema with SP for the show 'My Big Fat Greek Wedding'. After the show, we went to Caesar's Palace for a sumptuous meal and it was really like ..."Gosh... it feels so good!" and I started to question myself on the last I came out like that! It was like being a dolphin for once after so long! No more work politics like before but there you go, studies stress comes along and its like a continuous motion. Anyhow, Liverpool is in 2nd place and hot on Arsenal’s heels... 2 points behind and it’ll be a hot title race after all… You’ll Never Walk Alone lads!
Indescribable as it seems, tough yet challenging. My course starts off like an actual Outward Bound course for a 1 year old kid. Here I am from a Mechanical background going into a Construction scene... so, civil guys... watch your back. Anyway... the MSc. has outstretched me to my limits and as each day goes by, I am increasing my limitations, venturing into a 'once-thought-far-from-reach' datum. Somehow or rather... I will pull it through. Let's keep our finger's crossed. But it's funny how it all ends up so philosophically and mentally arousing that we have to have answers for our very own answers. And we have to keep questioning what other people are questioning or researching. Finding answers to answers that has never been answered before. I mean think about it... there's so many things in this whole wide world to research about and in reality... when are we gonna find all these answers to our questions? Never! It's all about thinking really, in a Masters course.
Anyway, went about my b'day the other day and it was so unexpected! And to be very honest, I haven't had a bunch of friends to celebrate it with me before... but of course... I reserved the day before for my other half and it was quite an evening spent dining and basking in the moonlight. The very next day, lecures as usual but as night fell, what was thought to be only 3 friends celebrating it for me swelled right up to 17ppl and that was cool fun. Nonetheless... it was another ordinary day and I am just glad each day passes by peacefully. It has been stressful over the last few weeks... I have been having migraine from my sinus and it was killing me. Really, the stress got the better outtaf me over the last few weeks but I am glad I am finally coming to terms with it. Not to mention the nose bleed for 3 consecutive days!! But all is well now... no more of that sort... just the occasional migraine. Not to mention the A & E of the Royal Liverpool Hospital which almost led me to insanity on Thursday night. Went there at 11pm and only got off at about 6am!! Went there for a check up on my constant nose bleed and you know something… when I queried the doctor regarding my abnormal bleeding… he queried me back…”Is your nose bleeding now?”.. and I gladly told him no and he replied me… “Then I can’t do anything about it coz it’s not bleeding now.”…. I mean… common sense would have told him that if I was still bleeding now and for 3 consecutive days… I would have been dead!! What I wanted literally from the doctors was that they might have been able to run up a brain scan on me to see if there were any internal injuries or something like that… but no! They stuck to the question of “Was I still bleeding from my nose at that very moment?”… Pretty dumb I would say huh?? So, I finally came to the utter conclusion that it was my sinus which was causing all the headache and the bleeding caused by the lamb chops and steaks over the past few days! Damn… my favourites which I have to omit from my menu for the next week or so till I recover!
Liverpool played today... coming to think of it, today was the only day ever since I started my course that I felt really relaxed and composed. It all started in the evening when after 89 minutes of open play, Michael Owen scored for Liverpool's 1-0 win over Chelsea at Anfield!! It really brightened up my day instantly and immediately after that, I was thinking... what the hell... and I went to the cinema with SP for the show 'My Big Fat Greek Wedding'. After the show, we went to Caesar's Palace for a sumptuous meal and it was really like ..."Gosh... it feels so good!" and I started to question myself on the last I came out like that! It was like being a dolphin for once after so long! No more work politics like before but there you go, studies stress comes along and its like a continuous motion. Anyhow, Liverpool is in 2nd place and hot on Arsenal’s heels... 2 points behind and it’ll be a hot title race after all… You’ll Never Walk Alone lads!
Tuesday, September 24, 2002
In My Place
Finally, my computer is back to where it belongs and even though with new found glitches... I am just glad that it's here. Well, started my MSc. course not long ago... 2 weeks old to be exact and it is practically no joke. I've found no time slot available for myself and time management is vital in my quest for survival. It is no doubt a very tough course but I willl pull through it... no more 'spoon feeding' like how it's used to be during my undergraduate course... everything needs phasing out now... research, IT, libraries are all part of my life now and it's gonna be a long long year for me. Anyhow, I will be up for it and let's keep our fingers crossed... at least do it for me ok? :-))
Sanity goes about my life now... ringing from time to time for a constant check thanks to me family and SP... cheers guys. Wouldn't have done it without you all. For the past one whole month, I have been absolutely busy and quite frankly, I am knackered now. Been running up and down, to and fro London, paperworks, work, 'work politics'... it was all too much for me but I am glad all that is over now and I can just concentrate on my studies... AGAIN... with a more critical approach. Wassup lately.... lemme see... ahhh... I have finally got one of my Liverpool idols, Riise, to sign my new home jersey... and I am just going bonkers over this. It will be one of my 'national history'... or rather, framed display. Lately, Liverpool Club Store came up with a whole load of new stuffs and I am just drooling over them... can't wait to get my hands on them... THAT IS when I am more 'well off'... and I will be... soon!! Anyway... gotta go now.. just a final note... Welcome to Liverpool SP!!
Finally, my computer is back to where it belongs and even though with new found glitches... I am just glad that it's here. Well, started my MSc. course not long ago... 2 weeks old to be exact and it is practically no joke. I've found no time slot available for myself and time management is vital in my quest for survival. It is no doubt a very tough course but I willl pull through it... no more 'spoon feeding' like how it's used to be during my undergraduate course... everything needs phasing out now... research, IT, libraries are all part of my life now and it's gonna be a long long year for me. Anyhow, I will be up for it and let's keep our fingers crossed... at least do it for me ok? :-))
Sanity goes about my life now... ringing from time to time for a constant check thanks to me family and SP... cheers guys. Wouldn't have done it without you all. For the past one whole month, I have been absolutely busy and quite frankly, I am knackered now. Been running up and down, to and fro London, paperworks, work, 'work politics'... it was all too much for me but I am glad all that is over now and I can just concentrate on my studies... AGAIN... with a more critical approach. Wassup lately.... lemme see... ahhh... I have finally got one of my Liverpool idols, Riise, to sign my new home jersey... and I am just going bonkers over this. It will be one of my 'national history'... or rather, framed display. Lately, Liverpool Club Store came up with a whole load of new stuffs and I am just drooling over them... can't wait to get my hands on them... THAT IS when I am more 'well off'... and I will be... soon!! Anyway... gotta go now.. just a final note... Welcome to Liverpool SP!!
Thursday, September 05, 2002
By Starlight
No blogs at the moment because of pc upgrade but all is well here and today was my first day enrolment for my MSc. course in Construction Project Management. How wise is this... I wouldn't know but guess I just hafta take this chance... I am nonetheless confident. It's back to school again and it's almost unbelievable at this stage of my life... after defering a year... or a year lapse... I am finally hitting the books again which makes me feel overwhelmed by... er... cant' explain it. Anyhow, it's gonna be a hell of a time for me and I will hang in ere'. My pc will be back next week and hopefully, I'll be back blogging as often as I can if time permits. I miss my pc very much... feels like hell whenever I get back everynite and do nothing with only the idiot box in front of me. Well... gotta go now... I'll be back.
No blogs at the moment because of pc upgrade but all is well here and today was my first day enrolment for my MSc. course in Construction Project Management. How wise is this... I wouldn't know but guess I just hafta take this chance... I am nonetheless confident. It's back to school again and it's almost unbelievable at this stage of my life... after defering a year... or a year lapse... I am finally hitting the books again which makes me feel overwhelmed by... er... cant' explain it. Anyhow, it's gonna be a hell of a time for me and I will hang in ere'. My pc will be back next week and hopefully, I'll be back blogging as often as I can if time permits. I miss my pc very much... feels like hell whenever I get back everynite and do nothing with only the idiot box in front of me. Well... gotta go now... I'll be back.
Thursday, August 15, 2002
In the Wee Small Hours...
The beauty of jazz, the sweet serene sounds of sax and the harmonious harmonica fills the cool and quiet nite... as I lay myself on the couch grasping every sweet tune that fills the air, escaping the sanity of my everyday life and making good sure I can at least have my very own empty space to dream or think about the more sensible things in my life. It's a bit nostalgic and I just love these moments although its a bit contrasting when it comes to me listening to more head banging stuffs when I am in the reverse mood. But its funny how you'll never see me in a more glorified mood than now or whenever when it comes to listening to jazz and blues, lights dimmed in the wee small hours of dawn, relaxing in the impeccable laid back ambience.
My 'Westfield' acoustic guitar lies at the corner of my room, sometimes I pick it up and pluck a few tunes to follow the cool rhythm... and it brings me back to them days of Thirty1stDecember... I pay my very own tribute to those unplugged nights but the story will continue... legacy feels far beyond reach at the moment but we'll get there. Nothing much happened these few days... just the usual running of errands and making good sure that I stay in tact with what I'm supposed to do. Soon, I'll be upgrading my system and it will be 3 weeks before I can retrieve my PC... will be updating more before it goes off. Anyway, gotta go now. Sleepless in Liverpool... felt nostalgic before anyone? .....
The beauty of jazz, the sweet serene sounds of sax and the harmonious harmonica fills the cool and quiet nite... as I lay myself on the couch grasping every sweet tune that fills the air, escaping the sanity of my everyday life and making good sure I can at least have my very own empty space to dream or think about the more sensible things in my life. It's a bit nostalgic and I just love these moments although its a bit contrasting when it comes to me listening to more head banging stuffs when I am in the reverse mood. But its funny how you'll never see me in a more glorified mood than now or whenever when it comes to listening to jazz and blues, lights dimmed in the wee small hours of dawn, relaxing in the impeccable laid back ambience.
My 'Westfield' acoustic guitar lies at the corner of my room, sometimes I pick it up and pluck a few tunes to follow the cool rhythm... and it brings me back to them days of Thirty1stDecember... I pay my very own tribute to those unplugged nights but the story will continue... legacy feels far beyond reach at the moment but we'll get there. Nothing much happened these few days... just the usual running of errands and making good sure that I stay in tact with what I'm supposed to do. Soon, I'll be upgrading my system and it will be 3 weeks before I can retrieve my PC... will be updating more before it goes off. Anyway, gotta go now. Sleepless in Liverpool... felt nostalgic before anyone? .....
Friday, August 09, 2002
Champagne Supernova
It's funny sometimes, so funny that it gets weird at times, so weird that you wished you could hide behind a closet but what if you are cool about it and your confidence is second to none... hmmph... sounds more like a riddle than a question. But really, it puzzles me at times how a problem dissolves through a period of time when at the present time it may seem like a hell of a problem or the other way round! Getting perplexed with my antagonizing shit? I hope not because there are loads more from where it came from... but maybe not today.
Do you guys wanna know how I sometimes come to terms with sanity? About 5 minutes ago I did just that. I was practically head banging to the sounds of Weezer and Linkin Park. The last I did that was when I was back home during jamming sessions with my band. Cap that! This sanity act at times is my only period of ignorance where nothing really matters... and it is only during this few minutes where I release my angst, dump myself into oblivion for a further few minutes before I regain my composure and continue with life. I wished my band members were here. Tribute to the good ol' times mates. Come this September, many things will be taking place and what's gonna happen is left to be seen but I am ready. Just keep those fingers crossed and let the good times roll in. At work, I've learned a whole lot even though it's non-related to my field of study... the 'flying daggers', the 2-face pricks, the short-fused assholes and how to deal with them, the sad ones, the depressed ones, the 'shoe-polisher', the 'mad dogs'.... and finally, the day dreamers. Its all about politics, pushing responsibilities, denials, emergency meetings, being sly and most of all, knowing how to 'play-act' at the right time. Guess this is how we all survive in the most superficial world today... but guys... I've got my act together now... tough beans rascals!
The Premiership is just a stone's throw away now... and I really can't wait for the season to restart and see how Liverpool spring up surprises... 3 good buys... Diara, Diouf, Cheyrou... hopefully Duff will follow suit later. Anyway... gotta go now... I know it has been long since I blogged... but hope yer' all understand. Ta'...
I Am
What Microsoft OS are you?
It's funny sometimes, so funny that it gets weird at times, so weird that you wished you could hide behind a closet but what if you are cool about it and your confidence is second to none... hmmph... sounds more like a riddle than a question. But really, it puzzles me at times how a problem dissolves through a period of time when at the present time it may seem like a hell of a problem or the other way round! Getting perplexed with my antagonizing shit? I hope not because there are loads more from where it came from... but maybe not today.
Do you guys wanna know how I sometimes come to terms with sanity? About 5 minutes ago I did just that. I was practically head banging to the sounds of Weezer and Linkin Park. The last I did that was when I was back home during jamming sessions with my band. Cap that! This sanity act at times is my only period of ignorance where nothing really matters... and it is only during this few minutes where I release my angst, dump myself into oblivion for a further few minutes before I regain my composure and continue with life. I wished my band members were here. Tribute to the good ol' times mates. Come this September, many things will be taking place and what's gonna happen is left to be seen but I am ready. Just keep those fingers crossed and let the good times roll in. At work, I've learned a whole lot even though it's non-related to my field of study... the 'flying daggers', the 2-face pricks, the short-fused assholes and how to deal with them, the sad ones, the depressed ones, the 'shoe-polisher', the 'mad dogs'.... and finally, the day dreamers. Its all about politics, pushing responsibilities, denials, emergency meetings, being sly and most of all, knowing how to 'play-act' at the right time. Guess this is how we all survive in the most superficial world today... but guys... I've got my act together now... tough beans rascals!
The Premiership is just a stone's throw away now... and I really can't wait for the season to restart and see how Liverpool spring up surprises... 3 good buys... Diara, Diouf, Cheyrou... hopefully Duff will follow suit later. Anyway... gotta go now... I know it has been long since I blogged... but hope yer' all understand. Ta'...
What Microsoft OS are you?
Friday, July 26, 2002
What do you call a Singh who drinks only soft drinks?
Yeo Hiap Singh
What do you call a Singh who drinks only beer?
Jasbir Singh (Just Beer)
What do you call a Singh who likes to go for a swim at night?
Kuldip Singh (Cool Dip)
What do you call the only Singh left on earth after a nuclear holocaust?
Jestwant Singh (Just One)
What do you call a Singh who owns a ship?
Karpal Singh
What do you call a Singh who owns a ship that sank?
No lah, not Titanic Singh. It's Karam Singh
What do you call the Bhai who was sacked from the national hockey team?
Relax Singh
What do you call a lousy Bhai?
Owtar Singh
What do you a vulgar Singh?
Tiu Niah Singh (Cantonese curse words)
Side tracking a bit here: What does a baby tuna calls it mother?
Tuna Ma (Cantonese curse words again)
What do you call a Singh who's a three star general?
Sam Lap Singh (Cantonese for 3 Stars)
What do you call the Singh who likes roundabouts?
Pu Singh
What do you call a Singh who's a gangster?
Sam Singh
What do you call a Bhai porn actress?
Hard Kaur
What do you call a female Bhai security guard?
Securi Kaur (securicor)
What do you call a Singh who likes to sing?
D.J. Dave!
What do you call baby Singhs?
Singhlets
What do you call the study of Singhs?
Bhailogy (Biology)
What do you call the study of baby Singhs?
Microbhailogy (Microbiology)
If the Sikhs were to succeed in forming their own country,
what will they call their currency?
Mata Wang Ah Singh
What do you call a Singh who's a coward?
Ball One Singh
FROM OUR VISITORS....
What is a Bhai standoff?
Two Bhais bathing together, and one drops the soap!
What do you call the Singh who can swim underwater?
GS Gills
What do you call a Bhai playboy centerfold?
Boh Cheng Kaur (Hokkien - "Not Wearing Pants")
What do you call a horny Bhai?
Gian Singh
Why is the KLIA a favourite for Singhs?
Because they have special immigration lanes for "ORANG AH SINGH"
What do you call the new KLIA taxis?
Limosinghs
What did the Singh say in his traffic accident report?
Dia belakang mari!
What do you call a Bhai girl who likes hot choclate?
Co Kaur (Cocoa)
What do you call a Bhai girl who's an interior decorator?
De Kaur (Decor)
What do you call a Bhai girl who's a gangster?
Tai Kaur
What is the official mode of transportation for Bhais?
Bhaicycle (bicycle)
*Typical M'sian Joke... no offence*
Thursday, July 25, 2002
I Will Survive
Beginning transition period... everyday is an uncertainty but one thing's for sure... 'It ain't over till' the fat lady sings'... and we'll slog it out to achieve it at whatever cost. No one's gonna defy me... nothing's gonna stop me as I will take this battle right up to my throat if I must but I will never fail... this I guarantee! My conscience's clear and Liverpool is all 'Go' for launch. I'm prepared... and I am hell bent on coming out tops. Keep the faith guys!
Beginning transition period... everyday is an uncertainty but one thing's for sure... 'It ain't over till' the fat lady sings'... and we'll slog it out to achieve it at whatever cost. No one's gonna defy me... nothing's gonna stop me as I will take this battle right up to my throat if I must but I will never fail... this I guarantee! My conscience's clear and Liverpool is all 'Go' for launch. I'm prepared... and I am hell bent on coming out tops. Keep the faith guys!
 What Was Your PastLife? |
Tuesday, July 16, 2002
Sometimes
It has been a long time since I updated this blog and the same ol' story runs thru' my journal again. I've been kept busy mostly with work and other official stuffs. However, there's one very interesting story that I experienced lately. There was this 2 guys who are mates and a gal who was painting the town red on a Saturday nite. They were dining where I worked and it was obvious they were too drunk. It was about 3.45am when they finished their meal and they started chatting and laughing. Soon enough, one of the guys passed out but the gal continued chatting with the other guy. Long before I knew it, they were snogging and it was as if the whole world wasnt there. And after 5 minutes of intense intimacy, they proceeded to the loo but what caught my eye was that the guy followed the lady into the women's as well. I rushed up to them and to my surprise, they were trying to lock themselves in one of the cubicles. I forced my way through the door and I was really taken aback with what I saw next. Only 5 seconds into the toilet and they were half naked!! They weren't at all embarassed and started dressing up when they knew they had no chance to fuck. The gal who looked more into her mid 20s... told me... "I'm married and legal anyway.... (showing me the ring on her finger)..." and I replied... " I don't give a fuck if you're married or not... just get the fuck outta the loo..." . The guy looked more embarassed and as he passed me, he whispered to me.... "Don't get this out mate... pretend nothing happened yeh? Dont' wanna make this big... her husband is just outside..." . I stared at him...." If you guys wanna get laid... please go fuck somewhere else and not pollute this place with your stinking shit!" ... and as they adjourned to the restaurant's hall... I recalled what they lad told me. He was right... the gal went up to the guy and called out..."Darling... it's time to go home... its' late... the kids are waiting." Her husband then woke up... seemingly fresh now after a 10minutes nap not knowing that his mate nearly fucked his wife... kissed her passionately and left. The other guy... left with them and he managed a little wink and thumbs up towards me. I paused for a moment and asked myself..."Did that just happened?"
I mean... a lad attempted to shag his mate's wife while his mate passed out? What English culture is this? I couldnt help but feel so fucked up by their infidelity. Anyway, it happens everywhere in the world but not to such extent. This is utterly shocking... I'm lost for words. Recently, the British government downgraded cannabis to a C-class drug... which means that anyone can start smoking them or even do pot without having fear of being caught. It's legal in a way when it's illegal! Coke and Crack remaining illegal is a huge sign of relief. Their reason?... too many people are doing them... and if they enforce laws on cannabis as they do on crack or ice... their prisons will be overcrowded! I mean... the whole English system is a full load of crap! This will only encourage more ppl to take cannabis up without having that fear. I really think its a whole load of bollocks! No disrespect to Dave Blunkett... but I think you've got it all so ever wrong.
Moving on... it was nice hearing from my long lost 'brother'...Mark. Hope you're doing fine dude. Keep up the tunes... I'll be there soon... December Tones. For the next coming few months... it'll be harsh reality for me as I will be working towards something important. My time will be so cramped up that I sometimes dread the days to come but I will do it however shit it'll be! I'll start my new resolution this week... from today onwards. It's either you have it this way or nothing at all and I am determined. My MSc. will not be a fluke... I will make it through... for my other, you'll make it at whatever cost. You'll Never Walk Alone... it would seem to be uphill if Friday is not right... but seem would be a word too vague to decide on anything... your determination has taken you this far... it will go on forever. Don't ever lose it... I'll be here. It seems uphill for me as well... but I am sure everything will be worth it at the end of the day. Wish me luck guys.
Today, I sit in my room... wondering what's outside... summer days are back, the sun's smiling, winds at 10 knots... considerably alright for the North West region where winds can go up to 20knots, the usual lone movie and coffee would be ideal for days like this... but today is an exception... as I brace myself for oblivion and solitude for the rough days ahead. Ta'...
It has been a long time since I updated this blog and the same ol' story runs thru' my journal again. I've been kept busy mostly with work and other official stuffs. However, there's one very interesting story that I experienced lately. There was this 2 guys who are mates and a gal who was painting the town red on a Saturday nite. They were dining where I worked and it was obvious they were too drunk. It was about 3.45am when they finished their meal and they started chatting and laughing. Soon enough, one of the guys passed out but the gal continued chatting with the other guy. Long before I knew it, they were snogging and it was as if the whole world wasnt there. And after 5 minutes of intense intimacy, they proceeded to the loo but what caught my eye was that the guy followed the lady into the women's as well. I rushed up to them and to my surprise, they were trying to lock themselves in one of the cubicles. I forced my way through the door and I was really taken aback with what I saw next. Only 5 seconds into the toilet and they were half naked!! They weren't at all embarassed and started dressing up when they knew they had no chance to fuck. The gal who looked more into her mid 20s... told me... "I'm married and legal anyway.... (showing me the ring on her finger)..." and I replied... " I don't give a fuck if you're married or not... just get the fuck outta the loo..." . The guy looked more embarassed and as he passed me, he whispered to me.... "Don't get this out mate... pretend nothing happened yeh? Dont' wanna make this big... her husband is just outside..." . I stared at him...." If you guys wanna get laid... please go fuck somewhere else and not pollute this place with your stinking shit!" ... and as they adjourned to the restaurant's hall... I recalled what they lad told me. He was right... the gal went up to the guy and called out..."Darling... it's time to go home... its' late... the kids are waiting." Her husband then woke up... seemingly fresh now after a 10minutes nap not knowing that his mate nearly fucked his wife... kissed her passionately and left. The other guy... left with them and he managed a little wink and thumbs up towards me. I paused for a moment and asked myself..."Did that just happened?"
I mean... a lad attempted to shag his mate's wife while his mate passed out? What English culture is this? I couldnt help but feel so fucked up by their infidelity. Anyway, it happens everywhere in the world but not to such extent. This is utterly shocking... I'm lost for words. Recently, the British government downgraded cannabis to a C-class drug... which means that anyone can start smoking them or even do pot without having fear of being caught. It's legal in a way when it's illegal! Coke and Crack remaining illegal is a huge sign of relief. Their reason?... too many people are doing them... and if they enforce laws on cannabis as they do on crack or ice... their prisons will be overcrowded! I mean... the whole English system is a full load of crap! This will only encourage more ppl to take cannabis up without having that fear. I really think its a whole load of bollocks! No disrespect to Dave Blunkett... but I think you've got it all so ever wrong.
Moving on... it was nice hearing from my long lost 'brother'...Mark. Hope you're doing fine dude. Keep up the tunes... I'll be there soon... December Tones. For the next coming few months... it'll be harsh reality for me as I will be working towards something important. My time will be so cramped up that I sometimes dread the days to come but I will do it however shit it'll be! I'll start my new resolution this week... from today onwards. It's either you have it this way or nothing at all and I am determined. My MSc. will not be a fluke... I will make it through... for my other, you'll make it at whatever cost. You'll Never Walk Alone... it would seem to be uphill if Friday is not right... but seem would be a word too vague to decide on anything... your determination has taken you this far... it will go on forever. Don't ever lose it... I'll be here. It seems uphill for me as well... but I am sure everything will be worth it at the end of the day. Wish me luck guys.
Today, I sit in my room... wondering what's outside... summer days are back, the sun's smiling, winds at 10 knots... considerably alright for the North West region where winds can go up to 20knots, the usual lone movie and coffee would be ideal for days like this... but today is an exception... as I brace myself for oblivion and solitude for the rough days ahead. Ta'...
| You are vivi You are very shy, yet very powerful. You care about others a lot too. You are a real sweetheart. ^_^ |
Saturday, July 06, 2002
Man in The Mirror
It's funny how days seems to be filled with anxiety and yet we couldn't do anything about it. Many things and events took place over the past few weeks... too many to be exact that I just don't know where to start. Anyway, to begin with, I bought the new long sleeved Liverpool home jersey for the season '02/'03 on its launch date and the response from the public was far greater than I thought so. People were queueing up for jerseys as though they were free... it was enormous, esthetic and intoxicating... far from what I have imagined it to be. It was just one of them memorable scenes as a truly Liverpool fanatic myself! Coming to the next thing... footie again... I would like to tell the whole world how very glad I am for the Perak Football team back home for lifting the Premier I cup this season... it has been a 13 year wait... CONGRATULATIONS, Champions! Next up... FA cup, Malaysia Cup and Charity Shield!
It will be exactly a year next week since I graduated from LJMU and I will be embarking on a new frontier this time around. It will be a testing period for me both at this very moment and in the future. For the past few weeks... my lines have been so jammed that I wished I had 48 hours in a day. I have been working my socks off at work... and when I'm back at home, other official and important chores seems to be in automatic transmission. Sometimes I wish I could get away from all this just for one day... just one day! My favourite part of the day would be when I am sitted in the car on my way back home. That's the 5 minutes break I enjoy every single day. It is rather silly but it seemed that every car, human, tree and house that passed me by were placed into slow motion. It was like in the movies but strangely enough, that was life and I am sure most people would feel the same when they ask themselves this... "What...?"
Finally, I had a job offer last week but it was for all the wrong reasons. A company from Holland rung me to inform me about an opening in Amsterdam and I was to reply within a day. All benefits were there including a car, relocation and accomodation costs, and everything else that fitted the bill of an expat... no doubt I will be one if I had agreed but not in a million years would I expect myself to be given so much benefits as a fresh graduate. It was like a windfall... I was tempted... the pay was good and I will be working for an International Corporate company in Amsterdam... any better? I didn't think so... but at long last... I rejected it. Why? It was an Auditor's position in a major finance company and I felt it would be better if I remain in what I do best... Engineering. Moreover, I graduated in Mechanical Engineering and only had partial experiences in Accounts Auditing over the past few years... the question many would be asking... then why was I selected? I am dumbfounded as well but the simplest possible explaination I could offer is that they might have felt that my working experience as an Auditor plus my analytical skills in Engineering would be enough to see me through this position. Well... tough luck ain't it? ...as I've said,...for all the wrong reasons...
Nothing is immaculate... I wished everything were... then there'll be less problems but all this are learning experiences. During this tough transition period, we will fight... SP, Des, .. we are fighters. We will make it... and also, I know some of you are pretty pissed off with me for failing to get back to you all after mailing and trying to get me for a few times... but I hope you all understand ok? I am really in the midst of a war here... well... that's it for now... another day to go by... ta'.
It's funny how days seems to be filled with anxiety and yet we couldn't do anything about it. Many things and events took place over the past few weeks... too many to be exact that I just don't know where to start. Anyway, to begin with, I bought the new long sleeved Liverpool home jersey for the season '02/'03 on its launch date and the response from the public was far greater than I thought so. People were queueing up for jerseys as though they were free... it was enormous, esthetic and intoxicating... far from what I have imagined it to be. It was just one of them memorable scenes as a truly Liverpool fanatic myself! Coming to the next thing... footie again... I would like to tell the whole world how very glad I am for the Perak Football team back home for lifting the Premier I cup this season... it has been a 13 year wait... CONGRATULATIONS, Champions! Next up... FA cup, Malaysia Cup and Charity Shield!
It will be exactly a year next week since I graduated from LJMU and I will be embarking on a new frontier this time around. It will be a testing period for me both at this very moment and in the future. For the past few weeks... my lines have been so jammed that I wished I had 48 hours in a day. I have been working my socks off at work... and when I'm back at home, other official and important chores seems to be in automatic transmission. Sometimes I wish I could get away from all this just for one day... just one day! My favourite part of the day would be when I am sitted in the car on my way back home. That's the 5 minutes break I enjoy every single day. It is rather silly but it seemed that every car, human, tree and house that passed me by were placed into slow motion. It was like in the movies but strangely enough, that was life and I am sure most people would feel the same when they ask themselves this... "What...?"
Finally, I had a job offer last week but it was for all the wrong reasons. A company from Holland rung me to inform me about an opening in Amsterdam and I was to reply within a day. All benefits were there including a car, relocation and accomodation costs, and everything else that fitted the bill of an expat... no doubt I will be one if I had agreed but not in a million years would I expect myself to be given so much benefits as a fresh graduate. It was like a windfall... I was tempted... the pay was good and I will be working for an International Corporate company in Amsterdam... any better? I didn't think so... but at long last... I rejected it. Why? It was an Auditor's position in a major finance company and I felt it would be better if I remain in what I do best... Engineering. Moreover, I graduated in Mechanical Engineering and only had partial experiences in Accounts Auditing over the past few years... the question many would be asking... then why was I selected? I am dumbfounded as well but the simplest possible explaination I could offer is that they might have felt that my working experience as an Auditor plus my analytical skills in Engineering would be enough to see me through this position. Well... tough luck ain't it? ...as I've said,...for all the wrong reasons...
Nothing is immaculate... I wished everything were... then there'll be less problems but all this are learning experiences. During this tough transition period, we will fight... SP, Des, .. we are fighters. We will make it... and also, I know some of you are pretty pissed off with me for failing to get back to you all after mailing and trying to get me for a few times... but I hope you all understand ok? I am really in the midst of a war here... well... that's it for now... another day to go by... ta'.